This whole 52 weeks of gratitude series might end up breaking my brain. I won’t lie. I have really struggled with some of these things. Not because I can’t write, but because I don’t know how to put some things into words.
For me, this one specifically is difficult. I’ve had a million challenges in my life… There are some that I’ve overcome, some I’m still overcoming, and others I’m still working on.
I talked with my friends, bounced some ideas off of them and hollered at that Tspoon guy again. Poor Mara and Nat having to deal with me, and even dug through lists of ideas online.
And then the answer smacked me right in the face.
I’m writing on this blog, this website, in the middle of all the chaos of my life… Then the lightbulb went off.
All of this… this is a challenge I’ve overcome. I’m proud of the fact that I’ve been able to tell my story, my son’s story, and help others. Everything I do here, on this website, on this blog, and on my social media… this is my biggest challenge.
This really encompasses several challenges to be totally honest. I had to overcome the overwhelming flood of everything that comes with grief in order to reach a point I could talk about it. Then I had to be able to actually articulate a multitude of things. What I meant, what I felt, and what I thought about with certain things.
The biggest challenge though, was to not lose myself through all of it. I had to learn ways to find my new “normal” as I learned how to understand my thoughts and feelings. I had to learn how to handle new thoughts and feelings as they arose. Also, I had to learn how to juggle them with the ones I had been feeling and thinking.
A true labor of love…
The path to get me to where I am now was long and laborious. Looking back it was worth every step. I’ve learned things about myself then, what I wanted, and how I wanted to be. I learned parts of myself that I wanted to keep, and what I didn’t. I also realized that I had a lot that I needed to adjust, fix, or change.
The challenge of all this, I have overcome. Somehow I have reached a point in my grief that I can talk about so much. My story, my son, and I can talk about my journey and I don’t lose it. I no longer drown in my emotions, or get lost in my thoughts.
There was no doubt that I had to, and succeeded, in pushing through the pain and the grief to write my book. Then realized that I wanted to do more. I wanted to help more. That is what lead to this website, and to the myriad of things I do outside of all of this.
And for all of those reasons, is why I’m grateful for being able to overcome it. I want to be the change I want to see in the world. This might very well be the best way I can do that.
This week, the challenge is to think about a challenge that you’ve overcome. Then, realize why you’re grateful for it, and what it really means to you.
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